I’ve been so focused on running the race in my life, I sometimes forget I’m not alone. I’m so used to living by myself, I sometimes forget I still have family back in Singapore. I’m so used to going home to a dark room, I sometimes forget what it’s like having someone waiting for me at home.
I say my dream is to provide free education for children, and with the technology nowadays, nothing is stopping me from doing it so…
What exactly am I chasing after?
Yeah that’s a dilemma I am currently facing. If I should decide I like to live and work in Japan, I am not sure if I can make that resolve to do so. I feel guilty for abandoning my parents who have raised me up, my siblings and friends who have been there for me. They are getting old, while I am in a foreign land gallivanting away.
I do love Singapore a lot. But when you are young, in your 20s, the world is your oyster you know. SG is a nice place to settle down, but it is such a small place, I can’t help wanting to get away for a few years and then returning.
I hope you find your answer, because truth to be, I have no idea what I want in life too. I am not sure if I would like to live in Japan as a form of psychological escapism that I have not been brought aware of or because it genuinely makes me happy.
Happy National Day by the way!
Thank you.
I feel the same guilt, and Mom’s been the best Mom as always, knowing I don’t like people telling me what to do, she doesn’t ask when I’m returning home anymore. Sometimes, it’s hard to find a balance between leading your own life and making the people around you happy as well. It’s a mystery I need to keep trying to solve.